First of all, Happy New Years for all who is reading this! Here is hoping for another year of good times!

Now for the main substance of this journal. 2018...it's been...a year. It hasn't been a good one; however, it wasn't completely terrible. I guess lets start off from the beginning. Note that it's not going to be every month. Just stating all major stuff that really happened relative to me.

January was the beginning of this mess. Put it short, I had to leave the household and spend the night in the streets till the morning. First time I actually got to walk around in the starlit sky peacefully though. Regardless, it wasn't very much a fun time. However this was really just the beginning. More time passed n whatnot and my job at was at, well it certainly wasn't the best. I don't work well with people as I really do not know how to interact. Considering I was working at fast food, it was hecking bad, but it helped me be stronger in the long run. That lasted till October.

By October, I have kept my job for over a year and I was also in school but everything just went bad. During October till now, I've lost my job, my cat passed away, lost important people that I can never get back, etc. Now why all this matters? Heck it may not. It's just part of the daily grind and more than likely people have gone through worse more than likely. But it made me learn alot

I am a shy person that tends to live in his own little bubble. I don't like conflict and I can't respond well to high tense situations. I'm a ball of alot of anxiety with low self esteem and rather alot of self-destructive though. With all the stuff mentioned above, it just help amplify it. I tend to mask it away cause it's no one else's problem. I don't like being a problem. However with me being all this, I'm also learning that I'm being rather toxic to others by acting like this, more or less like a wound that refuses to heal. Why am I like this? It's because of previous events that still haunt me today. A breach that just keeps leaking. However with leaks, it can be patched. Through friends who stick to your side and be there when needed the most, it can make all the difference. It can make an attitude change or anything.

I'm not a bad person. I'm just hard to know. I'm rather very cautious with stuff. However with everything that has happened, I try my best to be the best darn typhlosion I can be. I owe it to the people who help me actually to continue where I am. And maybe in the future, I can make peace with my innerself. With that, now you know a bit more about me. Happy New Year everyone~