Welcome back. I definitely missed you. I loved seeing each piece you posted.

Aww thank you buddy ;_; It'll be nice getting this all updated again, but god there's so much xD

You’re super welcome my very dear friend. Take as long as you need.

How have you been doing by the way? Any plans for the new year?

I’ve been doing okay. There’s a coworker at my job site that’s a real pain in the rear. I get that he has a mental disability that gives him the mentality of a child but the fact that he thinks that the whole world revolves around him, that he can tell anyone what to do and that he feels that he can do no wrong, call everyone a liar and claim that he never lies. On top of that he feels like no one is allowed to make any sound effects yet he makes them himself all the time and never takes responsibility for his actions. It’s honestly wearing on my mind.
I’m doing my best but it isn’t easy.

Oh gosh ;_; I'm sorry to hear that. Yeah even if someone does have mental disabilities it doesn't entitle someone to do what they want at the discomfort of others. Although not exactly the same thing I see a lot of people thinking they can be rude/problematic just because they have health problems (which I have them too but I'm not an asshole xD) and if you point it out thet pull a 'but i have x wrong with me you're just being ableist' and it can be rather annoying.
I hope it gets better for you soon buddy - is there any chance you can move to a different area at work or is there no choice?

He definitely wouldn’t call ableist as I’m very sure he doesn’t even know that word but he’s definitely ablist himself as he thinks he can make rules for customers, like they have to get out of their vehicles or he won’t go out to them and they have to put their donations in the bin by themselves and never offers to help them even though it’s part of his job to do so. He’s actually pissed off customers more than once with his actions. I actually told this to my job coach not as a complaint but more to protect him and the job site, that if the wrong customer was treated the way he’s been acting and calls him an ablist on and offline it would most likely destroy him. Not as in kill him literally but it could cost him his job and any future employment.
I’m doing my best to stay away from him, working in different areas of the warehouse but he’s so damn loud and my hearing can easily hear most of what he says from that distance. I’m not even trying to hear him.
I’v put in to get a transfer to a different work site opening up around next month. I love my current job site but I can’t stand this guy and his lack of respect anymore. He unfortunately reminds me everyday why I don’t want to have kids of my own. I just don’t feel like I’m father material. In spite of the kindness you know me for on here, I’m terrified of my disability getting the best of me if I were to get into a relationship. If that were to happen and I hurt the one/s I love it’d absolutely devastate and destroy me.

Oh gosh :( Yeah absolutely, you have to tread very carefully around customers because they will go to management or complain.
I'm sorry you're going through this though I hope you get settled properly into your new work site. Ahh gosh, I'm sure you would be a great father or partner in the future, is there no way you can get help or talk to someone about your disability if you have worries with it?

Indeed but he definitely doesn’t care. He’s actually told his job coach that he wishes that the customers would just stay home so he can sit on his butt all day and enjoy his day and was serious about it. He doesn’t get the fact that if it wasn’t for the customers/donors his job wouldn’t even exist. Goodwill, The Salvation Army and other places that require donations wouldn’t exist and I’m very sure that no other job site would tolerate how he acts for long.
Unfortunately I don’t have the new position and I’m not sure I’ll get it as I haven’t heard anything from the higher ups since saying I’ll take it.

The thing about my disability is that it affects my anger the most. Things that seem minor to most people seem major to me and that’s the biggest reason I’m afraid to even get into a relationship at all besides friendship. I’m extremely afraid of my anger getting the best of me and it would destroy me if I hurt the person I loved physically or verbally.

I really appreciate your confidence in me being a good partner and possibly father. It really means a lot,

Oh gosh... I'm sorry you didn't get the new position but I wish you luck with getting a better position for yourself in the future.
And I understand you, I suffer with a few mental health issues that can really affect my mood and health, so I know the worries of disabilities affecting loved ones- but I'm sure you will absolutely find some one who will be understanding of that and who could help you. I was awful with my OCD until I found my best friend (and also ex) and she's helped me cope with it so maybe you'll find someone like that one day! Do you get any help with your disability? I've been to a therapy group for mine for a few sessions and it helped out a bit or you might be able to get some material to help with it?

No worries. The new position isn’t available just yet. I just haven’t heard anything on it since I put in for it.
Hopefully I will. Not really. I’ve just been told to ignore him. Easier said than done when this person is super loud when he’s talking, complaining, etc. My mom has signed me up to see a psychiatrist. I had an evaluation and I should be hearing from them to see a group for dealing with work stress and possibly seeing one to see if I need to be on a medication.
I’m not very trusting of psychiatrists at this point. The first one I had back in my school days didn’t help too much and just a bit after I wasn’t a client of theirs anymore when I needed them to just sign a paper that might’ve gotten me on Social Security which would help a lot right now they refused to sign it because I wasn’t a client of theirs anymore. The paper really just said that I had autism at that point and I’d have it 12 months from then.
The second one while I was working at Camp Pendleton and dealing with another pain in the rear coworker was useless as well he took over $100 per visit and prescribed a medication that cost $700 per month and that was with insurance. When we just needed him to sign a paper that would’ve helped me get social security and/or qualify for a HUD voucher that would’ve helped me move out and live on my own he conveniently quit his practice and I believe left the country. He basically ripped off about $10,000 of my mom’s money.

Here’s to hoping this works and doesn’t turn into another screw job.

Oooh I see! I really hope you do, you shouldn't have to be so stressed out at your job. And yeah I understand its super hard to ignore someone when their actions affect you constantly.
Oh gosh :( Eugh I forgot how bad it is with healthcare in america... that's so shitty what a horrible man :/ I'm sorry that happened to you and I hope you can find someone who actually does the job and doesn't take all your money for it ugh

I hope it does work for you though buddy! You deserve to be happy!

Same here. In all honesty it’s people like him that remind me of why I prefer to work alone and why I picked Loneking as my username on here as well as usernames like Loneking, Lone Wolf on games of mine including Animal Crossing.

Thanks buddy. Here’s to hoping.