I hadn't planned on going totally radio silent for like a month but some things came up.

For the last few months my boyfriend and I had been planning a visit but it was very much up in the air on whether or not it would happen. Long story short, his family doesn't like us dating and didn't want him to come. So we had to plan our trip in secret and we didn't know whether or not he'd be coming until he was basically at the airport.

I didn't really talk about it or give a heads up because I knew there was a chance it wouldn't happen. And thankfully it did. He managed to get here so he could spend a month with me. Of course by the time he got here I was so swept up in being together again that I kind of forgot the outside world existed. I had a serious case of tunnel vision... But after months of stress, anxiety, worrying, and hoping I was definitely caught up in my emotions and wanted to just focus on him and us for the short time he was here.

Unfortunately that means my art has suffered a bit. I haven't drawn much of anything since he got here. It was very difficult to justify sitting and practically ignoring him for hours on end after he came halfway across the world to see me despite the risks and struggles it took to get here. So honestly drawing wasn't even on my radar. Just spending time with him and being thankful for what little time we had was my top priority.

Thank being said, he's gone home. His plane left at about 7am today. And although I'm devastated and heart broken I will try to get in some drawing here and there. Maybe it'll help distract me from how empty and quiet my room is now that he's not here... Because right now I can't seem to focus on anything else but how wrong it feels for him to not be here anymore. I keep expecting to see his bag and clothes pile at the foot of the bed or him snuggled under the blankets while he scrolls tumblr... So hopefully focusing on work a bit before school starts next week will keep me from being too upset about him leaving.

I'm also very sorry for not taking the time to let you all know what was going on. I just kind of lost track of time because I was so focused on the moment.