Well I never told this in my most re sent journal of why I was depressed, it was because two friend replied to me at night and couldn't respond because it was late, I was asleep at the time, but when I saw, I left like I was going to lose them, I was able to make contact with one of them,but the other... Nearly had it, but still didn't go so well, if I had just held it up more... I know one must not stay up, but I wanted to stay up, but I think the problem for me was my sleeping position, and I am worried nightly nothing could cost me yet another friend... So yeah, still feel like absolute shit.