This is possibly more for myself than anyone else, just to kinda get some things off my chest and open up a little, but I figure some of you may be interested in a little update of my life.

Well, I'm still alive and kicking! I dunno about you guys, but 2018 was one hell of a nightmare year for me. From endless bouts of heartbreak, drama, gossip, stressful jobs, fighting among roommates, losing friends and pets, and people just being really nasty and cruel in general, all the way to the passing of my dearly beloved brother  Arkhanis.. the entire year really destroyed me, and all sense of confidence and self-worth I once had. I won't go into all of that here. I've definitely changed a lot, and sometimes I worry not for the better. Some of you may have noticed I've been a lot quieter and more withdrawn. Depression is real, and stress really can make you ill.

But, such is life. And life goes on. You just have to keep moving forward with it. Live and let live. Chances are, the people being cruel are probably much worse off than you, and the best revenge is to live well, make the best of things regardless, and not be deterred in your own happiness. Think about the things that you do have, rather than the things you do not. Strive to become the person you wish to be.

And that's what I'm doing. Yesterday may have been hard, but it's done now. You never have to do it again. Each day is new and different in some way.
This last year has taught me a lot, about myself, about others, about what's important and what is less so. I've made mistakes, I have regrets, but most importantly I learned from them all. I'm thankful for the friends and family who stood by me and supported me though everything, even if I was sometimes neglectful and not entirely there. You all mean a lot to me! Especially my dear  Sedyana, who has been there for me and supported me through thick and thin, never giving up, no matter how bad things got. She's a real angel who isn't afraid to do what needs to be done. And even though I may have lost some friends, I've made wonderful new ones too, and I cherish you all <3

People can say some pretty hurtful and untrue things out of jealousy or to get a rise out of you, but the best way to combat that is to just keep being yourself and ignore them, let people see the real you for themselves and make their own judgements. Those who matter will see through the gossip and stand by you. I'm by no means perfect, but I aim to continue to improve myself, and hopefully be the goofy, playful, happy, and eeeee inspiring seadragon I used to be! I've discovered a lot about myself lately, both my dragonself and in this life as well. I have a much more positive outlook now, and I'm excited to see what the future has in store; I'm gonna grab life by the horns and enjoy it! Starting with a change of scenery, as I'm currently in the process of moving into my own house in a new, much more relaxing and nature-surrounded location.

This means lots of self-improvement as well! So expect to be seeing a lot more artwork from me, and (hopefully) music once I get my new place and get all my gear set up. I plan on doing a lot more travelling too, whether it be to see friends, visit amazing places (I just got back from New Zealand, and boy, do I recommend everyone make that a bucket list item!!!), or do my annual trips to BLFC, MFF, and Burning Man. I'm going to try to be a little more openly social and such too, but no promises, as I don't intend to stress myself out over that :P And of course, lots more raunchy seadragon smut! I'll try to upload a new pic every day or so to keep things fresh :3


So yeah, there you have it, a little insight to what's been up with this derpy dragon lately. If you have any comments or concerns or just wanna chat, please, don't be afraid to do so! The worst thing that can happen is for people to assume things without actually communicating for themselves.


And please, everybody, be good to each other and take care of yourselves. Life is too short. Let's all just enjoy our time together, alright? <3

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And for those of you that read this far, here's some random selections of music that helped me through the year :3

Steve Conte - Could You Bite the Hand?
Turisas - Into the Free
Infected Mushroom - Walking on the Moon
Seadrake - Daydream
Patty Gurdy (Storm Seeker) - The Longing
The Qemists - Run You
Ed Sheeran / Rudimental - Bloodstream (Only the most insane audio systems will be able to appreciate the sub-20hz bass, it's an experience)
Haywyre - Endlessly
Carpenter Brut - Turbo Killer
Ninja Sex Party - Danny Don't You Know
STAR WARS, but everything goes wrong because Luke is obsessed with Tosche Station
And pretty much every Sonata Arctica song XD