Well as I was saying in the last post, this is the update in my life at the moment.

Classes have begun, and surprisingly enough I'm talking almost all art courses. There's absolutely no logic or mathy or sciency stuff. Art appreciation, drawing, a short term English class, philosophy... ok I guess that is a logic and sciency class, and then an aerobic dance class.

As for back at home well things have been really up and down. Me and dad have been butting heads, and those issues spill over onto what happens with me and Ishy, then any issues with me and Ishy spill over into the issues with me and dad. This happened the other day when me and Ishy were having an argument, and dad speaks to me later and at that point I was VERY irritable, and snapped back with some rather biting comments. Dad of course took this personally which didn't end very well. Also, he saw it fit to impose a no computer Sunday. Well that needless to say hasn't gone well between me and my dad nor me and Ishy. Yesterday though, I decided that I am going to be leaving from my dad's back over to mom's after when I told dad that I wasn't going up with the family to the camp ground for the afternoon because I had class work for my online class, he went and took with him the power cord to the modem. When he got back, we argued about it and simply stated that I can't do class work on Sundays, because it should be done. Its funny, I can go work on computers on Sundays but I can't do class work which right now is more important.

You know its funny... He really wants me to become part of the family and such, but one, there is a 10 year gap between me and my younger brothers, so there isn't much I want to do that they're doing for the little ones. And also, I never really felt distant or oppressed until he began trying to force me off my computer and to join the family more, and even more so when I revealed that I was bi-sexual.

As for how things have been going on the end with me and Ishy. Things have been very rough. There has been a whole lot of up and down, fighting and arguing. He has a little too much time on his hands and during that time, since he doesn't seem to have anything to busy himself with, he sits and stews in his thoughts of my not being around as often as he wants, his almost hatred for my dad now, and other unpleasant matters which make him not an individual that I want to spend my time with, despite us being mates. There are plenty of times where I just can not reason with him, and that is my primary way of solving issues. Both of our tempers are flaring much sooner. As we've been discussing, the original cause of Ishy's temperament is my dad's idea that searching for a job entails looking 4-5 hours a day non-stop, and that nothing should be done on Sunday. And mine is a mix of both sides that just leak over. But there have been more than a few times, as some of you know, that I have questioned whether to continue this mateship or not if it is this bad.

Don't get me wrong I really do care and love Ishy, but this is not the way I want to live anymore, and I need to get away from it soon.

Beyond those issues things have been pretty decent, I'm not ill, I'm not so dirt poor or anything as I've gotten a few computers to work on and have been paid for those. I'm still looking for a part time job, and I will be very soon re-locating to my mom's house.