I have a confession to make on my part, one that plagues me to this very day. Most of the artwork I create is with bases that I usually get offline to generate a pose or an image for my character. Grant it I do make sure it's for general use, and I do get permission to publish the art piece. But each time I go to post it, I get the same nagging ugly regretful feeling, that this is not mine, that all I have done was used as an aid, and that why would anybody worthless like I should post something like this. an example of this would be using one of B9's images as a base for a new character that I came up with https://www.furaffinity.net/view/14320578/. Out of that, I have created this https://www.dropbox.com/s/sog4g4v69.....ished.png?dl=0 now I have asked B9 if I could design and post this so long as I made the appropriate changes and credited him with the base he gave me the go-ahead thrice. But each time I go to post this that nagging feeling pushes at my mind, guilt washes over me and I feel like an asshole for not doing things on my own. So what better way then to try it yourself....except with each drawing I do without a base is full of fucking failure.
It always comes back to me using the fucking base, and I am now just throwing in the towel, I am nothing more than a failure at art depending on tools to help me produce my artwork. Hell, I will give an arm and a leg to be as good as my favorite artist, yet these hands seem entirely useless. I will try to move away from base work art again, however, in the end, I am just not good enough on my own. Hell I feel even the art I create in college is not good enough, we are supposed to do self-portraits next week in class, and I feel as if I won't even get a line in before breaking my hands off.


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**you know what this whole depressive speech I have done ABOVE..... FUCK THAT. I am not the depressed little 13-year-old-year-old who would be given up at the first sign of trouble....no fuck that... I may use bases for a while hell for the rest of my natural born life, but as far as I can tell I am not going to let this beat me this time. I will get better maybe not today maybe not tomorrow. But I will get better. And for fuck sakes, I am going to stop acting like I can't post that pic I based off of B9s tigress I have obtained permission and I will give him credit. With that being said everyone who had reached out you for giving me a second wind I appreciated it, and you are indeed my friends. Going to bed and hit the ground running tomorrow.