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It's 2019 oh lordie
6 years ago
Okay! So I've been steadily trying to become more active here, DA, and twitter so thought I'd give a journal update while at it.
So first thing is that I am really enjoying writing up ShadowPal and I'm glad for the people who are enjoying it too, thanks so much. I don't have a set schedule of updates for now because I just upload as I finish the chapter. I would like to have a more steady upload schedule though which brings me into the next thing.
My home situation is not great. I'm dealing with parents that think they're helpful when they're really not most of the time because most of it leads to constant emotional abuse from them and minor physical abuse from my mother, who is also very controlling as is. Having both anxiety AND dysphoria on top of this is only feeding into depression. Which doesn't leave me very full of energy to write when I'm spending that in decompressing instead. The cherry on top is that I have SSI due to having Autism but I have little to no access of my SSI. This is because my mother uses most of it towards her bills/debts and then calls it square by only giving me $25 out of the full payment per month.
So needless to say, I am trying to get out of this situation. I BEEN trying to get out of this situation for years. I have opened up fundraisers and go fund me and patreon and all that to get out of this situation and they all were either sabotaged by my mother or flat out ignored. The only work I been able to handle is temporary and seasonal work due to my emotional and mental state.
That being said, I am still trying to find a job that hopefully I can hold down permanently if I get out of this house. But for now, I do have a ko-fi page that would help me with having some money on the side. Mostly for my cat, Crook but also saving up, in general, to get the hell out into my own place.
From there I can continue other steps toward getting my life on track. Like getting a therapist and top surgery and a proper diet, etc.
ShadowPal will still be continued, I have no plans to stop, this is just why updates will be... wonky.
So first thing is that I am really enjoying writing up ShadowPal and I'm glad for the people who are enjoying it too, thanks so much. I don't have a set schedule of updates for now because I just upload as I finish the chapter. I would like to have a more steady upload schedule though which brings me into the next thing.
My home situation is not great. I'm dealing with parents that think they're helpful when they're really not most of the time because most of it leads to constant emotional abuse from them and minor physical abuse from my mother, who is also very controlling as is. Having both anxiety AND dysphoria on top of this is only feeding into depression. Which doesn't leave me very full of energy to write when I'm spending that in decompressing instead. The cherry on top is that I have SSI due to having Autism but I have little to no access of my SSI. This is because my mother uses most of it towards her bills/debts and then calls it square by only giving me $25 out of the full payment per month.
So needless to say, I am trying to get out of this situation. I BEEN trying to get out of this situation for years. I have opened up fundraisers and go fund me and patreon and all that to get out of this situation and they all were either sabotaged by my mother or flat out ignored. The only work I been able to handle is temporary and seasonal work due to my emotional and mental state.
That being said, I am still trying to find a job that hopefully I can hold down permanently if I get out of this house. But for now, I do have a ko-fi page that would help me with having some money on the side. Mostly for my cat, Crook but also saving up, in general, to get the hell out into my own place.
From there I can continue other steps toward getting my life on track. Like getting a therapist and top surgery and a proper diet, etc.
ShadowPal will still be continued, I have no plans to stop, this is just why updates will be... wonky.
