I've been studying hard for a pair of upcoming tests. I don't plan to get into the details yet, but they're difficult and will be coming sooner than I wish. Still they must be done, so do them I shall. I am working as well as I can. I'll be returning to NC in June, temporarily with my family but thankfully only temporarily until I am moved into a new place. I wasn't originally going to announce that yet but I might as well now. I'll give more information as I am able to. I ask for all who believe in God, a god, or the human spirit to pray for me that I will able to get what I want. I know what I want, but I won't be sharing yet.

I've been working on a story for quite a while. I'm hoping to finish the first draft before Fur the More. In more positive news I'll be running my reptile panel at the con and I got my story in the con book. Admittedly I thought I would, it's a silly story but I knew it fit their criteria. Still knowing something of mine will be read by people always makes me happy.

Now today as Ash Wednesday is the beginning of Lent and I decided to give up video games. Last year I gave up FA, that wasn't nearly as hard as I thought it would be. It also was what told em that games are much more important to my life than being a furry. As such it seems best that I try to give them up. And I can already tell this is going to be much harder.

I'm just intensely bored. But I'm trying to view this as an opportunity. And a reminder, a hobby should pass time, not fill it. So instead I am trying to write and read more, study more, and just in general do more to fill the hours I will now have free. It's going to be an adjustment, but one that is probably for the best.

This time next Wed  rimme and I will be at  vrraven house, getting ready for our trip the next day to Fur the More. I really need it right now. The people at work have been more idiotic and since I'll be quitting that job soon I just do not care. In fact all I can think is that before this job I was neither a liar nor a thief, and now that is not true. My only hope is that the next time their is a major terrorist attack in this country the only victims will be the people who run my company, because that'st he only way those a-holes will amount to anything.

Beyond that I had a rather terrible incident where a white supremacist told me not to drink bottled water because the government was using it to turn us all gay (Yes really) and where a life long drug dealer told me I didn't have real people problems like he did because I'd never been to prison. I also didn't sell weed to an undercover cop like a moron. I know I should sympathize....actually no. No I shouldn't. If you sold weed to an undercover cop and you go to prison, that's the way the world should work.

I've been very depressed lately. I'm trying to work through it but it's not easy. I just feel like I'm trapped in a Hindu infinity knot. I want to both have a job I like and a job that will pay the bills and actually allow me to earn a decent living. And it seems like those two are perpetually at odds. I had to leave my parents house to finally begin living, that's how controlling they were. And now that I'm out here I am finally able to see all the possibilities out here. And what drives me nuts is I had to wait so long.

I believe age is just a number, but it still angers me how much time I lost. I have to make that up.