People are always so judgmental about others, especially when they don't even know that person. Not only that, I had believed that upon joining the furry fandom meant that we could get away from the toxicity and cruelty that is the real world around us and be part of the friendly community. I had hoped that it would at least help me with my social skills since I am having trouble making friends even in real life.

But no. People out there now want to spread their hate and malice, commit petty crimes and make other bad decisions even in the furry communities, and most of the time they get away with it.

As for me, I am terrible when it comes to first impressions and when I talk, most people think I sound manipulative and demanding even though I never meant to. Because of my lack of communication skills and the tendency to be impulsive, I end up losing opportunities to make new friends, people don't want to be around me and prefer to avoid me like a plague rather than help me.

Maybe I should just go and live out in the wilderness, maybe live among the horses and just die a lonely death. At least they aren't as complicated as humans and more understanding. I'm sure that nobody, other than my distant family and friends that I never get in touch with anymore, would even notice I'm gone. I'm nothing but a small speck in a large universe that will get dusted away at some point in time.

I'm really lonely and depressed right now, and I could really need a friend.