My heart is split both ways.

One side is angry at my family,since they say they can take care of my two dogs(I tried to take care but when I do,they don't see it and they say "I don't do it"),but locked them up in a small cage.My dad even threw a pillow at the elder dog just because he was barking.(As you know,now is the chinese's 7th Month and some chinese say dogs can see the departed...)

And there's another feeling.A sick,gnawing feeling,like your heart's being pulled down into a black hole,and you lungs are being filled with water.And my eyes want to tear.

Is....this.....guilt?