You need to calm down and take a step back. Look at your priorities, sort them, and see where you go from there. It works for me, at least.

I am calm. Very calm. Almost too calm. I just need time alone unbothered, which I can't get.

Well, whenever you can...

time unbothered is reduced more and more as you get older. It causes a lot of stress that we all need to learn to deal with- it's difficult. Some struggle more than others. As for your goals, try to simplify them- if you want to go into creating technology, then start researching it. If you have passions about other things, look into them as well. Break down your goals into smaller steps, and then everything will seem more manageable, ok?

i'll go into technology AFTER I finalize shifting+levitation, and no sooner.

About what I said, reverse it. Yeah... three years late on that correction... Anyway...

D:

College may be the answer O:

Hmm, you are in a state I have been in about 6 times before.
Half this time I eventually became quite restless and emotional broke down in some form, twice these forms were aggressive involving me yelling alot how capable I am but given little oppurtunity and enviroment to fully realize my potential.
These loud rants usual enlighten my little brothers to how damn better they are doing than me in my life and they should be happy. After all, I would love a job, and wouldn't give a damn if it was at a fast-food place or gas-station as with my siblings, and would love to fill my empty time with college work...

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I came to realize that there are some basic things that you could do to prepare for WHEN you get the proper resources and oppurtunity and help for developing your new technology.

First make a lot of notes on what your technology is, what it does, how you want it to do what it does and what it could do if successful or unsuccessful, as well as variant methods to reach your goal.
Make a list of resources you'd need, both material, human, or intellectual, so that way you'll know when you have everything you'll need just by going over the list.

This should take an hour to do, and if you wwant to get really really detailed, maybe even take up a whole day or so. Productive and time filling.

Wow. Six times? How long have they lasted? 'Cause I've been like this for a while now, and finally I have some things planed out and lined up. I'm rarely bored enough to write that kind of thing, but if I ever am, I'll follow your advice.

Your ideas are really good, I'll try them soon, thank you.

(this is my new account, BTW.)