In the last eight to ten weeks, I have probably traveled over 7,000 miles. Of which over 2,400 miles I drove. I have stayed in back rooms, on couches, in driveway parked RV trailers. I have met some online friends for the first time ever during these journies, but really this is all in service of one thing. Getting myself into grad school. I wish to become the first doctor in my family. My family is a family of merchants and farmers, with some soldiers of one sort or another here and there. Both sides of my family at that.

I turned 28 this year, and I am still in school more or less. 10 years in higher education, not joining the workforce heavily or otherwise not living a life I should be living now. But I am doing what I am doing now, and that's all that matters. I applied to nine doctoral graduate school programs for psychology, and so far I have had six interview requests, one rejection to interview, and two applications still pending. Of the six interviews, I have received rejections from two programs, with three outstanding pending selection decisions, and one interview scheduled for the 22nd and 23rd of April. Of the two applications pending, I have until the 15th to get the truly finished, all I am missing is one letter I believe. I will be making contact with that person as soon as possible.

It is my hope that of the four interviews still active, any of them extend an offer. They all have something interesting about them, and all have their pros and cons. I think I would be happy at any of them, and I would be glad to have a doctorate at any of them. So please send your good vibes, your prayers, and anything at all. I have done all I can, and now it is outside my hands. If I do not get into graduate school this year, it may be five years or more before I get the opportunity to reapply. And that is something I am worried deeply about. I cannot allow myself to be afraid, because it is a realistic possibility, but my life plans will have to hit fallback points and that is very concerning.

I hope, after I get a bit of rest, I will be able to open one or two spots for $20 fast commissions, of one I think someone may have dibs. I have been suffering from an ability to get things done, so I will have to say these will be raw, highly focused and fast-paced stories focusing on one character or adding a story description to an image. 1500 to 2000 words. I do not think I can world build or justify the development of story or character. These will be specific custom transformation porn without plot. So aside from no celebrity/real person fiction(outside commissioners themselves) and underage characters, I will literally write anything you want.

I wish to get some spending money, as I have been relying on family support and what I have leftover from Christmas and my Birthday to fund all these interviews. Flights are expensive, as is gas, lodging, and food.

I hope to hear back from at least two of these programs over the next two to three weeks, and if accepted to any, I will take it and I will hold it dear because I know my next five years will be 50 hour weeks and doing my due diligence. The training wheels are off, this ain't a panty-ante bachelor's. A C is a failure, and Bs are the minimum.

Though it isn't all doom and gloom. I am hopeful, and I feel like in my time on FA I have made things for everyone to enjoy. I think I am going to investigate on how to accept tips from people that enjoy my work. I think that there are people that enjoy what I write, and if some good kind furs wish to support me a little, I will accept it. I am unsure how to do that legally, I would need to ask someone who already knows how that works. If I get an acceptance, I do hope to then raise $2,000 for my last(second ever) summer vacation to a Gaming Convention(PAX West probably). Continuing the idea of fast commissions, I think if I have a month or two free and the security of an acceptance letter, I might be able to do something. I would limit them in small batches and manage my workload so I would be writing short punchy custom stories for $20 a piece at 1,800 to 2,000 words that I could theoretically get done in two hours if I put my mind to it. If I do a hundred of them, then I can have a good adventure.

However, being a realist, I have tried to open commissions before, and while I can write stories fast for free. Writing for pay has been a bit of a nightmare due to how I scheduled my life, and by mistiming things, it resulted in huge mismanagement. It was a learning experience, and I now know what my strengths and weaknesses are. I cannot overthink, and I cannot overdevelop. Once given a premise, I must execute that premise with the guidance of my commissioner and nail down everything quickly and get the work done. Faffing about with long discussions and brainstorming is what kills my pacing. Over the last five years of writing stories, I know I can get things done in one night quickly and efficiently. Over the last ten years of school, I know how to set deadlines, manage workflow, and god-damn cram in the last few hours before it's due. So it should be possible, but I don't know if it is a good idea or if there is any interest.

Frankly, I am a very low key FA member, hanging about the sidelines...but between opening up small batches of commissions, a tips jar, and maybe doing some other side hustles, if I do get accepted, I will work my fat horse ass off to be able to take a trip. I cosplayed, been invited to a dev party once, it was so good and I wish to do it again! Because the first two years of graduate school is the critical No-Life transition period, if you don't get used it fast, it will definitely be a struggle. So who knows, I definitely hope to hear back from three schools over the next two weeks...so...here's hoping.

Thanks for reading this, if you did, please leave a comment. I crave comments and I just wish more furs would leave them so I know what the consensus is on what I write.