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6 years ago
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Yes I'm still here.
So I haven't really done much story progress anywhere past random brainstorming that I don't end up writing or typing down. I do have a little more art and commissioned some new stuff, mostly of Candy.
Motivation can be hard.
I can't tell if I'm getting overall better or worse in my emotional and mental health. I'm seeing a therapist now and all that, but I sometimes feel like it really hasn't done much. I started about end of February.
I've lost friends, had friends I just haven't messaged first in a long time, so my list of people I chat with is shrunk again. I feel pretty sad realizing how most of the time, I have to message people first or I will never hear from them. I didn't block anyone, I just... Haven't messaged first in a long time, and honestly don't wanna have to try so hard messaging first every time anymore. Its a bit frustrating really, sometimes I will not see someone for months unless I send a message. It makes me feel like that person doesn't really care, or such. This isn't just one person I'm talking about either, I won't name anyone, but I could easily have made a long list with it. It's kinda also frustrating because I always say that everyone can message me even if I'm offline, but nothing comes of it. I only have like 4-5 people I really chat with at all right now, only really 2-3 of those are people that I don't have to message first to hear from too, and I have tons of people on Discord and Telegram. The other like 2 are people I have met recently, out of many through a Discord server and a separate site, who I sometimes will message because I care and like them, but I have to message first if I wanna hear from them. It becomes disheartening seeing a long list of online friends when none of them ever even attempt to reach out ever, it makes me feel more alone really when everyone's online. This all is also after trying to reach out and meet new people recently too.
I do still have a long road in therapy.
This is in no way an April fools thing, serious.
So I haven't really done much story progress anywhere past random brainstorming that I don't end up writing or typing down. I do have a little more art and commissioned some new stuff, mostly of Candy.
Motivation can be hard.
I can't tell if I'm getting overall better or worse in my emotional and mental health. I'm seeing a therapist now and all that, but I sometimes feel like it really hasn't done much. I started about end of February.
I've lost friends, had friends I just haven't messaged first in a long time, so my list of people I chat with is shrunk again. I feel pretty sad realizing how most of the time, I have to message people first or I will never hear from them. I didn't block anyone, I just... Haven't messaged first in a long time, and honestly don't wanna have to try so hard messaging first every time anymore. Its a bit frustrating really, sometimes I will not see someone for months unless I send a message. It makes me feel like that person doesn't really care, or such. This isn't just one person I'm talking about either, I won't name anyone, but I could easily have made a long list with it. It's kinda also frustrating because I always say that everyone can message me even if I'm offline, but nothing comes of it. I only have like 4-5 people I really chat with at all right now, only really 2-3 of those are people that I don't have to message first to hear from too, and I have tons of people on Discord and Telegram. The other like 2 are people I have met recently, out of many through a Discord server and a separate site, who I sometimes will message because I care and like them, but I have to message first if I wanna hear from them. It becomes disheartening seeing a long list of online friends when none of them ever even attempt to reach out ever, it makes me feel more alone really when everyone's online. This all is also after trying to reach out and meet new people recently too.
I do still have a long road in therapy.
This is in no way an April fools thing, serious.
