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What might be the last of the anxiety episodes...
6 years ago
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So, everyone, I figure I would post this update just to explain what be going and keep ya'll up to date.
As ya'll know, I am an over-analyzer. So much so that I over-think my over-thinking. On top of that, my mouth goes faster than my brain, so I can sometimes blurt out really stupid things. Not sure if these are just parts of my personality or actual issues with self control that can get meds for or just.... derpty doo. But constantly worry about this has lead to constant anxiety. The worst part is that it multiplies, because you know about it, you over think it, and you use it as either excuses or something just hits you and makes you realize something.
This has lead to MAJOR confidence issues. I have never really had faith in myself sometimes and as a result, I have break downs constantly.
However, I want to say this is going to change. Somehow, some way.
At the moment I am just doing what I can to focus on pushing past these issues, and that is gaining confidence. I am doing what I can so I do apologize if I seem irritable or like that, but I am working to be a better me.
That means admitting some things, some things that are tough to admit. So I apologize if what I say seems rude.
Know that what I speak is usually roo'd, but I am just determined to be me.
Another thing, I am going to try more uploading and now going to try figure improving and working with getting an image complete. Not sure of what steps, not sure what other areas are still bad, but I am going to continue working on art.
Feel free to throw request ideas my way. I like the potential of listening to ideas I really like, and hope at the chance to draw them. I may not draw everything that is requested or I want to, and not everything will go the way I want it, but I am not going to assume people wouldn't want to see the idea. If it inspires someone else, that is the most I could hope for. And I like to be strange with my artwork.
Finally, if you were in my discord server at one point, but are wondering why you aren't: at some point in time during this anxiety episode, I deleted it in a panic. I am going to try to not do that again, but I am also attempting to bring the server back. Not sure how I wish to build it, but just keep an eye out for a way to rejoin it. Vlux's pouch will slowly reopen to the public.
And guys, just.... a big thank you for hanging around through all this. Old me would say something like "I do not know what you see in me", but instead, I feel like saying something like "I am glad I can bring a little smile to your day, even if it is an awkward chuckle".
As ya'll know, I am an over-analyzer. So much so that I over-think my over-thinking. On top of that, my mouth goes faster than my brain, so I can sometimes blurt out really stupid things. Not sure if these are just parts of my personality or actual issues with self control that can get meds for or just.... derpty doo. But constantly worry about this has lead to constant anxiety. The worst part is that it multiplies, because you know about it, you over think it, and you use it as either excuses or something just hits you and makes you realize something.
This has lead to MAJOR confidence issues. I have never really had faith in myself sometimes and as a result, I have break downs constantly.
However, I want to say this is going to change. Somehow, some way.
At the moment I am just doing what I can to focus on pushing past these issues, and that is gaining confidence. I am doing what I can so I do apologize if I seem irritable or like that, but I am working to be a better me.
That means admitting some things, some things that are tough to admit. So I apologize if what I say seems rude.
Know that what I speak is usually roo'd, but I am just determined to be me.
Another thing, I am going to try more uploading and now going to try figure improving and working with getting an image complete. Not sure of what steps, not sure what other areas are still bad, but I am going to continue working on art.
Feel free to throw request ideas my way. I like the potential of listening to ideas I really like, and hope at the chance to draw them. I may not draw everything that is requested or I want to, and not everything will go the way I want it, but I am not going to assume people wouldn't want to see the idea. If it inspires someone else, that is the most I could hope for. And I like to be strange with my artwork.
Finally, if you were in my discord server at one point, but are wondering why you aren't: at some point in time during this anxiety episode, I deleted it in a panic. I am going to try to not do that again, but I am also attempting to bring the server back. Not sure how I wish to build it, but just keep an eye out for a way to rejoin it. Vlux's pouch will slowly reopen to the public.
And guys, just.... a big thank you for hanging around through all this. Old me would say something like "I do not know what you see in me", but instead, I feel like saying something like "I am glad I can bring a little smile to your day, even if it is an awkward chuckle".
There is a bunch of things I gotta work on, but I know one of em is my inner voice :3