Does it feel like I have a hole somewhere else not my pockets? It kinda feels like it does when I'm just one of the few people who isn't "Woke" or a Plant Baser, nor an RARA or an RARA Lite.

Why does it hurt me that I just not ready to be a parent in a world where people Are forcing people to see stuff that is fun behind a screen? It makes me think that I don't have confidence sometimes when this is a World that is engaged in the Cancel Culture where some people wanna cancel things that aren't offensive before people in my age group arrived?

I'm just not up to the point if that happening.
It still just goes to show that:

I'm STILL not a Tank Emptier.
I'm STILL not a Buggy Bickerer.
I'm STILL not a Wagon Wrecker.
I'm STILL not a Dairy Damager.
I'm STILL not a Rodeo Ruiner.
I'm STILL not a Circus Heckler.
I'm STILL not a Racetrack Crasher.
I'm STILL not a Human Care Hater.
I'm STILLNot a Betafied Anti-Agricultural NPC.
I'm STILL not a Breeder Basher. (and STILL not planning on being one)

Then why I still feel like I have a hole in the heart?

I just...wish I could be someone who writes or draw for the places that I support without pay even--just to fill the void that I've been having since '10...

I don't wanna seem "Selfish" because I gave up my will to be a parent so I can do Fanmade Stories of Four Legged and Feathered Parents... This is why I do what I do without remorse or selfishness. (or regrets)

It's kinda hard for an Aspie like me to say all of this since I can't handle change that well.

TL;DR: I just don't wanna feel bad for being creative and supportive of the places and people that inspired me to what I do.