[small self rant]

As I near my birthday, I've been reflecting and I've decided that I'm sooo tired of being so stupidly shy and fearful and stuff. I'm still closeted to my family with the exception of a cousin, though I'm out to my friends. I've maybe kissed one guy and the thought of physically seeing someone/dating causes me to become the physical embodiment of anxiety. Meanwhile, my cousin is not shy, has been dating, has definitely kissed more than one girl, and came out to the family. I'm about to go shake her down for any spare/loose confidence she might have lying around.

Alternatively, gonna find a miracle cure for shyness and the like. And no, I don't think I'll be trying the "miraculous healing powers" of bleach or whatever. lol

[/rant]