I am no longer sure if I want to "Be Dracour" any longer. I am not my character and never have been, he is just that; a character, but in chats or groups I tend to casually talk as if playing as my character for entertainment (That and when in groups it seems a norm to do).

I guarantee I am not Dracour, he is arrogant and jerkish, I however am only slightly arrogant and mildly jerkish.

Now there are a lot of people who "know" I am not like Dracour; you tell Dracour no and he'd do it anyway, you tell me no and I'll stop no questions asked and not do it again. I have done my best to let people know he's an "unwilling" char thus if you say no in char he'd go ahead anyway, but if you say no OOC and then it will not be done. Complicated but these are some of the problems with only liking "Unwilling" scenarios (honestly, willing scenarios are as bad as sex rp's IMO and would never do either).

The problem here though is that those who don't know this about me always see me as a god damn jerk! I've been called far worse than that, called OP, said people won't get involved in chats with me in them or even outright left groups because I am active in them.... all because I only like unwilling and play a jerk character that doesn't spend 5 minutes hugging everyone and doing a friendly nom when asked per say...

And I gotta say, this is really getting to me now.

I know some people don't like unwilling, force, control or "My char is more powerful than yours" and those who know me would laugh if they heard anyone say that Dracour is more powerful than anyone else. Having a char take control is kinda needed for unwilling scenarios, and I always follow the rule of "If Dracour can do this to you then you can do this to Dracour", I keep it as fair as I can. If I do something by force then I won't get annoyed if it's dodged, avoided, parried, or even ignored if not wanted.

Now don't get me wrong, not everyone is like this. I've had quite a few people tell me that Dracour is one of their favourite chars as he actually does do force and teases and shenanigans. A lot of people like unwilling scenarios and force involved, and they like the fact that if Dracour does something to someone then he "accepts" (loosely said because he'd still be unwilling acting for it) the same thing in return done to him making a more fair playing field as it were. If he sits on you then you can sit on him. Simple enough really.

Plus the whole "Dracour acts as pred only as that's the most effective form of unwilling prey, but people still assume he's pred only and thus never do anything in return despite me saying they're more than welcome as I am a switch, prey preference even, but still after being said it's still Dracour has control 97% of the time" .... which kinda can't be helped as it seems the majority of SFW only rp'ers like me are prey preference or on the subby side and also do not enjoy being the pred/dom/one in control. Being the pred only all the time kinda gets boring and very demotivating for me to want to RP any more as I know exactly what is going to happen.

I just don't want it to be where I go into group chats and either some people leave the active conversation because "Oh great Dracour got involved", which is honestly now how it's starting to feel.



TL;DR:

Dracour is a jerk, I am not. People think I am Dracour, I feel like I don't want to be Dracour any more.