My cat smeagol died last saturday
last week his condition got worse and there was nothing left to do other than euthanasia (really don't know a better word for it sorry)
my family is really feeling it, i don't think we ever loved a pet as much as we loved smeagol, my dad's been crying for days
i still didn't had a opportunity to have a proper meltdown, but i know it's coming and i'm going to crash hard... he was my best friend
My only solace is that at least i know he's not suffering anymore

This is one of the reasons why i'm closing my commissions
I want to give myself time to heal and properly mourn my friend, and i also want to focus on my studies
But i'll probably still make ych's in the future since this is my only source of income

I still intend to finish all my work but if you commissioned me and are unhappy with all the wait you can ask me for a refund

thank you for reading and sorry if i don't end up responding