Hey there everyone! :3

Sorry ive had lack of things to upload, its been quite a while since ive owned my own /personal/ PC, for the last few years ive been using my Best friend's rig. Before i continue, i wanna get this off my chest.

Thank you  mizrik for being such an amazing friend who always believed in me and gave me praise about being smarter than i give myself credit for and  RidiRaccoon for always trying to keep my spirits up even when ive been less than adamant about taking such kind words, two of the best RL friends i've ever had in my life and im truly grateful for everything they've done for me, i had some pretty bad times where i didn't have the self-confidence to find work and just a cycle of doubting and putting myself down. I dont know where i'd be if not for them, perhaps on the streets cause my family wouldn't really be an option to go too. (Father divorced mom recently-ish and mom living with my sis in a full house). I certainly owe my life to these two, i dont think i would have found such care and patience elsewhere. I love you guys! ;w;

And thanks to those who stuck around me and my stubborn butt, i know ive had issues believing in myself and just an overall pain but i have a few anxieties that just make me clam up but im trying to adapt a "Dont stress about Negativity , only think positively" manner.

I know ive been inactive for quite a while but now that i have work again, the days will be less 'mundane' and i wont be depressed for having lack of purpose. As the saying Goes "Idle hands are the Devil's playthings" as for an empty, unbusy mind will be clouded with doubts and fears.

And furthermore much much love too  electratheraichu for being a confidant and loving person. This person has also helped me keep my sanity and has often snapped me out of silly emotions and dumb sprees of doubt that would just come over me. I cant thank you enough hun, you've been a great close friend, something i didnt feel like i deserved at times.

Was that too much? hopefully i dont come off as a huge dork xwx

Anyways! As for the less active part:
SINCE i have work again, i'll be able to steadily buy commissions again! and maybe start doing some side interests ive had like attempting to color things again in Sai, perhaps trying to draw again on free time and the like, maybe even stream on Twitch for those who'd wanna see me be silly in games and maybe rage quit on a few of em. (nothing online tho! mostly SP games.)

And with the help of other friends like  Shoogy and  rollarwolfcub that only wanna see me do better, have chipped in to help me get my own PC again. I didnt wanna accept it at first cause.. i didnt feel like i deserved such generosity but now i see that they're only trying to do a nice thing cause they care and wanna see me unleash my hidden potential, i know its there.. i just have trouble reaching for it on my own.

I'm thankful for the friends ive had over the years, you guys made life holding onto, the times i just wanted to give up, i'd think about the people who would be sad at such news and push myself to get over that hurdle and continue pushing forward.

As cheesy as this is, my path may be filled with blinding shadows but im thankful to have friends to help me walk towards the light.

Seriously, i love you guys. Thank you for being there.