Executive dysfunction just isn't letting me do anything lately.

Some days (like today) I'll get up excited to start things, I feel good because my depression isn't as bad as usual and my body isn't in pain. Things must be good! Then I open what I have to work on and everything sinks. My hands won't move, I'm overwhelmed. I try to pick a spot to start, and pickup some colour to work with, then depression starts to creep in as I realize I'm not getting anywhere.

I try to run through any stepped I missed that would get me back to moving,
Did I forget to eat so my mood is deteriorating? No, that's not it. I took my medication, I have water to stay hydrated, I've seen friends recently, I went outside in the sun yesterday, by all accounts there should be nothing holding me back.

And yet?
Here I am, I fell off schedule almost immediately.
I haven't worked on any personal projects, or commissions, all I've been doing is some pencil sketches.

I tried to work on some commissioned work, despite today not being on schedule for that, because I haven't in over a week, but all that's really done is made me feel guilty that I'm here, with things not done or worked on, unable to function. I guess mostly I'm just saying this because I haven't been active here at all.

I'm doing fine otherwise, so there's nothing to worry about for me, just that I really have nothing to post other than maybe another compilation of traditional stuff. If I can get out of this long enough to finish the work I have, I promise I'll do something nice for all the people here. Maybe some free art giveaway or something similar.

I have a huge urge to do so much art but right now I'm just held back by guilt of not finishing things I suppose.
I'll keep trying to fight this and actually work on something today, I'll keep trying to do my best