I just feel that I needed to get my thoughts out there. Almost a month ago I started HRT and I am overjoyed that I got started. But now everything feels so slow and it's so madding. It is like being a kid on Christmas eve night and not being able to see cause you know there is a bike downstairs waiting for you. But then there is the fear that it won't be the bike that you wanted. I so I am trying to say that I know changes will happen at some point, but I wish they would happen faster. And I am scared that I won't look close to what I was hoping for. I feel so lost and I don't know what I am doing. I wish I knew how to put on makeup to hide my facial hair outline, I wish I knew how to deal with so many other things. Sorry for the dumb of so much. So everything seems to be going well.