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(Emotional journal)
6 years ago
Have you ever felt guilty for being happy? Pretty much the feeling I have every now and then.
Just by having good family, enough food and place to live in, I’m having way more that some people. And every time that hurts me; “here I am, enjoying my life, while others is suffering because of bad luck in life”.
And worst of all - I can’t help them. Even if they’re my friends - nothing much I can do even if I WISH to.
As well it makes me guilty for ever complaining... and all this cycling over and over, hurting me again and again...
Just by having good family, enough food and place to live in, I’m having way more that some people. And every time that hurts me; “here I am, enjoying my life, while others is suffering because of bad luck in life”.
And worst of all - I can’t help them. Even if they’re my friends - nothing much I can do even if I WISH to.
As well it makes me guilty for ever complaining... and all this cycling over and over, hurting me again and again...
Where I live, almost 90% of the people that are in dire straits are there practically by 'choice'.
There are people that make more money from a government subsidy every month, than I do 'working'.
For some reason, within five days of the beginning of the month, they are already broke.
I wonder why. I could take a wild guess at why.
But they are overshadowed by those phonies. You are definitely a great person
in which your friends should show an abundance of gratitude(to be thankful).