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I'm dying. I need to struggle to survive :}
6 years ago
Dying mentally. also slowly physically.
Almost lost will to survive. life feels meaningless. nothing is fun anymore.
eating is for keep my body alive. sleeping too. and sex? ...I dunno anymore.
I didn't even take the SSRIs for week. but already struggling hard. not sure it's because of the side effects.
My situation seem stuck. my future seem dark. I need to change.
Change myself or change my environment.
Tomorrow, I will try to contact HR team and ask for moving my department to do more researching work.
I've been try to work as a salesmen for 5 months (almost half year) I know it's still very short, but the more I work, I realize it's not for me...
I'm bad at accounting stuff so pretty sure it's not good for selling stuff and such.
But I love studying about our company products and doing research/experiment stuff.
No matter what will happen, I will try it. I have to try something, anything to change this situation.
I am the master of my own life.
*deep breath and sigh*
Wish me good luck.
Almost lost will to survive. life feels meaningless. nothing is fun anymore.
eating is for keep my body alive. sleeping too. and sex? ...I dunno anymore.
I didn't even take the SSRIs for week. but already struggling hard. not sure it's because of the side effects.
My situation seem stuck. my future seem dark. I need to change.
Change myself or change my environment.
Tomorrow, I will try to contact HR team and ask for moving my department to do more researching work.
I've been try to work as a salesmen for 5 months (almost half year) I know it's still very short, but the more I work, I realize it's not for me...
I'm bad at accounting stuff so pretty sure it's not good for selling stuff and such.
But I love studying about our company products and doing research/experiment stuff.
No matter what will happen, I will try it. I have to try something, anything to change this situation.
I am the master of my own life.
*deep breath and sigh*
Wish me good luck.
And wish you the best of luck getting that new position, sounds like something you would enjoy doing!
*HugHugHug*
Stay strong
Getting the right medication can be tricky. Everyone reacts differently. Work with your clinic or doctor to find one that works for you. It takes time. I know. And it's very difficult. Stick with it though.
The attitude you have to keep trying is the right one. Keep that up.
Otherwise, take care ;w;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLhrfCZROlQ
This may help you to relax. take a hot bath and think of what you want to do for your job.
You may have to change where you are.
most important is to take care of yourself. *hugs the Lime bird close*
I hope you are able to transfer and do work that suits you better! I agree with the people saying you may need to try a different medication. Once you find the right one, things will probably get much better!
Time passes, and you discover again and again that you can handle everything.
People care about you.
SSRIs can have really bad side effects and withdrawals i gave up on them long ago myself, but there might be one out there for you its just a matter of adjustment a lot of the time
if you use discord and you would ever like to talk, please feel free to add me- eifie#5949 (we used to talk on skype but i abandoned it and so we lost touch ><)