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6 years ago
Hi! Everyone! I've been MIA for a while now, but am officially getting back into the swing of things- I know my Journals have been hectic so far, and Life has ALSO been hectic so I just wanna give a brief rundown on what up with a cat.
> I MOVED! Yay! I'm renting w/ a friend in MA now and officially am away from my abusive mother!
> Renovations are NOT done where I'm living though and it is kinda HELLISH. but that's okay- I'm slowly raising money to at least get my OWN room livable via KoFi and soon Adoptables/MAYBE Comms again.
> I got a Used Car! It costs a lot in car loan but AT LEAST ITS MINE. AND CURRENTLY FITS IN THE BUDGET.
> EVEN IF MY BUDGET TIGHT AS HECK (like only 23$ Margin of Error per month tight)
>My Mom is in a nursing home. I had a scare for a while she had ALS because her symptoms rapidly were getting more severe, and that is what the DR told me, however it turned out to be side effects of a medicine she is taking. She can not walk (with a walker) a bit again, and speak while before she could only lie in bed and listen. It's good progress.
>Downside I'm stuck in this weird situation where I need to be a POA for my abusive parent, and I don't want to, it is time consuming and exhausting to do with Executive Dysfunction, but no one else in the family will.
> During all this my Aunt who was doing my Mom's Medicaid Application was bullying and Abusive to me- sending me 45 message text chains bi weekly and cussing me out.
>IDK how I feel about my family now
>I'm still a temp at my job- but they say they are going to hire us PERM. We were supposed to be hired Perm in May but it was pushed to September due to another company buying the section I was in. So we will be hired exclusively under this other company, but also no promises or info has been given which makes me hella nervous TBH.
>So I still have no benefits.
>I hurt my back moving furniture recently
>Due to this, I had to take a day off to go to Urgent Clinic since I've previously had a slipped disc- I thought I could do this safely as my paystub said I had 8 hrs sick time. My Recruiter informed me I only have two hours- so paired with Memorial Day being unpaid I'm gonna be 200$ short this month, but I'm trying to work something out.
>I've been away for all these reasons, and also because I've needed time to sort through some of the side affects of living with my abusive mother- I'm discovering things like
- I can actually achieve things.|
- I can form healthy habits.
- I can stand up for myself when someone yells.
- My Opinions and Ideas are valid.
- My art is good, and my ideas are not dumb.
- I am capable of budgeting.
- I CAN SURVIVE. WITHOUT HER.
Anyway, so I've been sorting this all out, and its in and out and on and off with my mental health still.
But being active online again is SOMETHING I WANT.
So I'm gonna go for it
TL;DR: Cat has been through ALOT OF SHIT. And is sorting out Life, and the side affects of mental abuse but misses ppl and being here so THEY COMIN BACK.
More to Come
~Kaz
> I MOVED! Yay! I'm renting w/ a friend in MA now and officially am away from my abusive mother!
> Renovations are NOT done where I'm living though and it is kinda HELLISH. but that's okay- I'm slowly raising money to at least get my OWN room livable via KoFi and soon Adoptables/MAYBE Comms again.
> I got a Used Car! It costs a lot in car loan but AT LEAST ITS MINE. AND CURRENTLY FITS IN THE BUDGET.
> EVEN IF MY BUDGET TIGHT AS HECK (like only 23$ Margin of Error per month tight)
>My Mom is in a nursing home. I had a scare for a while she had ALS because her symptoms rapidly were getting more severe, and that is what the DR told me, however it turned out to be side effects of a medicine she is taking. She can not walk (with a walker) a bit again, and speak while before she could only lie in bed and listen. It's good progress.
>Downside I'm stuck in this weird situation where I need to be a POA for my abusive parent, and I don't want to, it is time consuming and exhausting to do with Executive Dysfunction, but no one else in the family will.
> During all this my Aunt who was doing my Mom's Medicaid Application was bullying and Abusive to me- sending me 45 message text chains bi weekly and cussing me out.
>IDK how I feel about my family now
>I'm still a temp at my job- but they say they are going to hire us PERM. We were supposed to be hired Perm in May but it was pushed to September due to another company buying the section I was in. So we will be hired exclusively under this other company, but also no promises or info has been given which makes me hella nervous TBH.
>So I still have no benefits.
>I hurt my back moving furniture recently
>Due to this, I had to take a day off to go to Urgent Clinic since I've previously had a slipped disc- I thought I could do this safely as my paystub said I had 8 hrs sick time. My Recruiter informed me I only have two hours- so paired with Memorial Day being unpaid I'm gonna be 200$ short this month, but I'm trying to work something out.
>I've been away for all these reasons, and also because I've needed time to sort through some of the side affects of living with my abusive mother- I'm discovering things like
- I can actually achieve things.|
- I can form healthy habits.
- I can stand up for myself when someone yells.
- My Opinions and Ideas are valid.
- My art is good, and my ideas are not dumb.
- I am capable of budgeting.
- I CAN SURVIVE. WITHOUT HER.
Anyway, so I've been sorting this all out, and its in and out and on and off with my mental health still.
But being active online again is SOMETHING I WANT.
So I'm gonna go for it
TL;DR: Cat has been through ALOT OF SHIT. And is sorting out Life, and the side affects of mental abuse but misses ppl and being here so THEY COMIN BACK.
More to Come
~Kaz
