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Explanation of the wtf
16 years ago
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My boyfriend and I have been together for about 11 months now, and I finally decided to tell him something that I've been wanting to say for a while.
That is, I told him I had a crush on him our freshman year of high school, and even up until he asked me out. Turns out, he had liked me, too. So why is it that this seems really strange to me?
We never spoke to each other in the class that we had together, even though we sat right next to each other. Halfway through the semester, I had to switch seats because my computer broke down (it was a desktop publishing class). He said that he was upset the day it happened, and from that day on he would wait to log out so he could line up at the door near my new seat. He says he was never really social during the last class of the day (even though it was only 4th period. Complicated situation I won't go into...), so he never did speak to me.
That was all new information to each other. It's even weirder when played with the other facts we already knew. He lived just around the corner from me for 5 years, and we never knew. Unfortunately, he doesn't live there anymore. But we were on the same bus for a semester on Mondays. We were both involved in backstage activity for theatre. So, we knew and were good friends with some of the same people. I had never stopped liking him, even through the summer, when we saw each other ONCE.
And then sophomore year came around. My best friends and I were going to Homecoming, and one of my friends was going to try to find me someone to go with. My current boyfriend.
But, I'm still so confused. How could we not know we lived so close to each other for so many years? I would pass his house every day to and from school. He would occasionally walk past my house to go visit his aunt who lives just a few doors down from me.
If we had known all of this...
How would things have turned out between us? Would it all be just as awesome? Better? A failure?
I know there's nothing we can do about it now, but it's just so weird. So much to take in.
It's put me in a weird mood. I'm not sure what the word is for how I feel right now.
If you want to share your thoughts, go ahead. I'm not stopping you, but I'm not urging you. I just needed to type this.
That is, I told him I had a crush on him our freshman year of high school, and even up until he asked me out. Turns out, he had liked me, too. So why is it that this seems really strange to me?
We never spoke to each other in the class that we had together, even though we sat right next to each other. Halfway through the semester, I had to switch seats because my computer broke down (it was a desktop publishing class). He said that he was upset the day it happened, and from that day on he would wait to log out so he could line up at the door near my new seat. He says he was never really social during the last class of the day (even though it was only 4th period. Complicated situation I won't go into...), so he never did speak to me.
That was all new information to each other. It's even weirder when played with the other facts we already knew. He lived just around the corner from me for 5 years, and we never knew. Unfortunately, he doesn't live there anymore. But we were on the same bus for a semester on Mondays. We were both involved in backstage activity for theatre. So, we knew and were good friends with some of the same people. I had never stopped liking him, even through the summer, when we saw each other ONCE.
And then sophomore year came around. My best friends and I were going to Homecoming, and one of my friends was going to try to find me someone to go with. My current boyfriend.
But, I'm still so confused. How could we not know we lived so close to each other for so many years? I would pass his house every day to and from school. He would occasionally walk past my house to go visit his aunt who lives just a few doors down from me.
If we had known all of this...
How would things have turned out between us? Would it all be just as awesome? Better? A failure?
I know there's nothing we can do about it now, but it's just so weird. So much to take in.
It's put me in a weird mood. I'm not sure what the word is for how I feel right now.
If you want to share your thoughts, go ahead. I'm not stopping you, but I'm not urging you. I just needed to type this.
"If Only I Had Know..." has been the guiding point behind many a story line, and has featured heavily in my own life.
If only I had know...
nvm, long drawn out, emo-drama.
I'm glad to hear that someone actually finds the one for them once in a while. grats.