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Notes aboutMental Health, Pride Month and Future Streams
6 years ago
General
Hey everyone, I just wanted to give some updates about a few things going on in my life right now:
While the road to recovery has been slow as Vey Hek over here, I want people to know that there has been a lot of progress over these last few weeks. I think the biggest thing is finally admitting a few thing about my dad and how he is the [bleep] two bit [bleep] [bleep] piece of [bleep] horse[bleep] that has ever [bleep] [bleep] [bleep] with a god [bleep] fire hose. And that as much as I love his side of the family like my brothers and sisters and my nieces and nephews, the man him self is only a sperm donor and nothing more.
Also, biggest things that I beat myself up for are usually past events that hold no significance now. Things like being a bully when I was in grade school, stupid things said, pretty much any negative thing I have done I continue to hold and punish myself for despite what happened no longer being relevant. I do not think of myself as a mean person any more, but when I think about some of the bullshit I pulled growing up, it really hurt to think about. Welp, no more. While I won't be doing it again, I also won't punish myself for doing thing as a kid. Its the kinda crap you laugh over.
Which transitions nicely into this bullet, PRIDE MONTH. I hope everyone has a happy one and I think I might be finally ready to have pride in myself to do something for pride month. I do not know what yet, and its kinda ticking away. I do not have to do anything, but I want to do something for the folks that mean a lot and to have some pride in myself ^^
And finally, the topic of streaming: First off
zynoth_rexel and I are doing streaming over on twitch. I am working on getting some equipment so we can stream some newer and older games. One we are planning to do sometime soon is Monster Hunter Generations Ultimate. I will post a journal link when it is ready and (hopefully) have an image to go along with it. <3
Mental Health
While the road to recovery has been slow as Vey Hek over here, I want people to know that there has been a lot of progress over these last few weeks. I think the biggest thing is finally admitting a few thing about my dad and how he is the [bleep] two bit [bleep] [bleep] piece of [bleep] horse[bleep] that has ever [bleep] [bleep] [bleep] with a god [bleep] fire hose. And that as much as I love his side of the family like my brothers and sisters and my nieces and nephews, the man him self is only a sperm donor and nothing more.
Also, biggest things that I beat myself up for are usually past events that hold no significance now. Things like being a bully when I was in grade school, stupid things said, pretty much any negative thing I have done I continue to hold and punish myself for despite what happened no longer being relevant. I do not think of myself as a mean person any more, but when I think about some of the bullshit I pulled growing up, it really hurt to think about. Welp, no more. While I won't be doing it again, I also won't punish myself for doing thing as a kid. Its the kinda crap you laugh over.
Pride Month
Which transitions nicely into this bullet, PRIDE MONTH. I hope everyone has a happy one and I think I might be finally ready to have pride in myself to do something for pride month. I do not know what yet, and its kinda ticking away. I do not have to do anything, but I want to do something for the folks that mean a lot and to have some pride in myself ^^
Streaming
And finally, the topic of streaming: First off
zynoth_rexel and I are doing streaming over on twitch. I am working on getting some equipment so we can stream some newer and older games. One we are planning to do sometime soon is Monster Hunter Generations Ultimate. I will post a journal link when it is ready and (hopefully) have an image to go along with it. <3