So I’m on medication and seeing a psychologist for my mental health but at the moment neither are really helping,
I keep having nightmares and flash backs to a lot of trauma I’ve gone through,
Getting anxiety that makes me shake and feel sick,
I’m exhausted from the lack of rest and trying to deal with suicidal and self harm thoughts and the general self hatred.

I’m really trying my best but it’s hard, constant anxiety, feeling abandonment and remembering all the abuse I’ve been through and just wanting to disappear it’s hard.

I want to feel free, relaxed and loved but my brain hates me.

On top of that my health is kinda shit, mental health makes my diabetes and immune system crash so yea....kidneys are in agony RN

I don’t know what to do with myself, I keep thinking of running away or hurting myself.

Man fuck everything right now ><

Might not be posting much art, I’m not sure if I’ll have the energy but it is also a distraction.

Sorry if this upsets anybody or offends them, but I needed to vent somewhere where I won’t get shit (hopefully)