Sooo it feels kinda weird giving any sort of rundown on here but might was well—

Guess I’ll start with the good thing—celebrated my bday last weekend so that’s a thing. Got some nice things and lots of well-wishes. Downside was that I was pretty sick the day of so I didn’t get to go out and do a lot of the things I wanted, but on the other hand it was a mellow day and got to watch Spiderverse again.

Now for less pleasant stuff:

-I’m gearing into finals hell pretty hard and I’m not exactly doing great this quarter due to some early setbacks that produced a cascading effect so I’m a mix of stressed and a general “fuck it” mood towards my academics rn.

-Allergies are bad, and I’ve suddebly been hit with another long bout of exhaustion. Which coincidentally also makes my insomnia worse so it’s this constant loop of being tired, not being able to sleep enough hours (I wake up after about 4-5 hours and can’t fall back asleep), and being even more tired. Which paired with allergies has been giving me headaches up the wazoo.

-My sister is moving out with her boyfriend so I’m now bearing the brunt of family abuse in her stead. Wonderful.

-yesterday a family member had to be rushed to the ER, and the doctors are still puzzling over it. They were allowed to return home but there’s gonna be followup tests that may reveal a potential heart issue, which is also not so great. And during that period it was stressful.

-spring/summer always brings out my depression symptoms for whatever reason. So dealing with those again.

-I’ve been in general fighting illness after illness so that’s starting to worry me. To boot I’m also stressing about getting top surgery while I’m still covered by an insurance company that doesn’t fuck over trans people but at the same time my disorder is making it difficult to take my hormones on time OTL

The point being this is all contributing to my diminished presence and it’s also why I’m really slow responding to notes and those of you that have me in DMs. Please don’t think it’s anything you guys have done to cheese me off—I’m just dealing with a lot and withdrawing from social stuff. I am sorry I’m hard to pin down but honestly, I don’t think that’s going to change anytime soon. I do appreciate everyone that reaches out as well as the kind words I’ve been getting, and I hope that I have the ability to respond soon. But I also just don’t have the energy to explain myself to everyone individually, so here’s kind of a blanket statement for that purpose.

Once again though, thank you all for your kind words and the attention, it does mean a lot to me even if I don’t respond/take forever to respond.