Or at least I will this Friday.

I have no bills that I need to pay out of my next paycheck...okay, maybe I'll put $100 towards my student debt, but. Still. That's around $700 that I can just...leave sitting. Save. Use on fun stuff here and there, maybe.

I don't really think I'm in a state of mind to express how incredible this really is, though. My family has lived paycheck to paycheck, money always and forever being tight. My entire life, it's been that way, before and after my parents separated. My mother grew up in near-poverty, and my father, while better off than her, still always knew the value of a dollar ifyaknowhatimean.

But now, here I am, with my own job that I love to do, and that I do really well...and I've always told myself that I would be the one to break the cycle. I would be the one who would stay prudent even when I come into money, so that I don't blow it and have to start over. I promised myself since I was a little kid that I'd go to college, that I'd make it into Harvard or Yale and come out ready to blow the world out of the water. I'd be the one to change my family's way of keeping themselves down.

And now, while that second part hasn't panned out just yet (I have $2,400 in student debt before I can even go back to school), here I am now with practically an entire paycheck. To myself. With no bills, nothing to pay off. I've even already made the usual monthly payment on my student debt, although again I pay a little extra here and there.

This feeling is...I'm not sure how to explain it. Relieving? Calming, in a way?

I just know I haven't felt this great in a long time. ^w^