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Wubba lubba dub dub (I’m in great pain, please help me.)
6 years ago
I’m in my bed. Bad thoughts overwhelming my head. Actually it was happening before I take a shower. I thought taking a shower would makes me feel better because it usually does.
but I still wish that hope I don’t wake up in the next morning.
Today, because of the anguish it made me thinking about hanging myself. To escape from this reality.
My everyday feels like a walking on a tightrope. or standing on the cliff edge. I keep trying to stay sane but also about to lose my shit in any second.
It’s like eternal pain.
I keep try to grasp some hope and believe that give it some time and things will get better but I’m not sure it’s getting better or worse.
Anyway I made it through another day...
but I still wish that hope I don’t wake up in the next morning.
Today, because of the anguish it made me thinking about hanging myself. To escape from this reality.
My everyday feels like a walking on a tightrope. or standing on the cliff edge. I keep trying to stay sane but also about to lose my shit in any second.
It’s like eternal pain.
I keep try to grasp some hope and believe that give it some time and things will get better but I’m not sure it’s getting better or worse.
Anyway I made it through another day...
we’re always here for you anytime.
And talk about myself for help.
and I guess it’s not helping myself so far.
Also the reason why I write journal is can’t talk to EVERYONE face to face.
So I just venting here and let the people know what I feel or what I want to talk.
rather pass through or I shatter. Here goes nothing.
well I will keep try to endure it until they fire me.
they can't easily fire people and even if they do, I can get money from government for being unemployed. (but if I quit my own will, I can't.)
I am trying to get away from there.
try to live simple. eat, rest, sleep and such.
if i think too much or deep, it keep makes bad chain reaction.
I care about you. I really do.
If you ever need anything from me, you have but to ask and I will ry my best to help you out :<