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6 years ago
Its been a while but its about time I should inform everyone what has been happening to me.
I have seen all the medical practitioners that were open to me. All the procedures done. What they found was that there is a cyst in my brain that is about 1 by 2 inches wide. Its in an area of the cerebellum that is often used for balance and motor functions. However, the neurologist was 100% sure that because i did pretty well on my balance exams, then the vertigo im having has nothing to do with the brain cyst and that its harmless. Instead they were certian my condition is a psychological one, that my vertigo is in fact a delusion they think is a result from depression.
Honestly I have never been really depressed of had anxiety disorders in my life.... but after a few hospital scares, ive come to the conclusion that in fact a lot of my symptoms had been a result of having a panic attack over worrying over my health and being sick. I dont even feel like the same person anymore, its much harder to feel happy anymore. I hate this, I hate that feeling and so since then ive been actively trying to surpress all any future anxiety attacks. So far it has been working as i have been able to stop numerous ones. I hate the idea of having an anxiety disorder over this, and I am trying to fight it without having to result to the dangers and prolonged use of antidepressants.
Right now my condition has settled into 3 distinct symptoms.... constant imbalance feeling, headhaches that travel around my brain and sinuses, and strong tinnitus (a constant buzzing) in the ears. This is what I am dealing with now.
The doctors think now since I passed the vertigo tests well that this condition needs psychological treatment. I in fact do believe that i need to see a therapist, Im willing to accept that a lot of things have changed in me and I may be dealing with an snxiety disorder. However, I have had some really good days last weekent where I was feeling very happy. ANd I woul report that I still had the symptoms that day even through I totally ignored them and had a great weekend. So I willing to give a shot at trying to treat this as a mood disorder problem. But I do still feel that some of these symptoms are in fact real.
So for nw Im carrying on and just trying to take each day one at a time. Im still worried about if I will be able to handle a atandard labor job again and would i be able to handle it. And im still very much in need of commissions to help me get by. I am totally open right now BTW.
. Thank you all for sticking by with me through all this. You guys are the greatests
I have seen all the medical practitioners that were open to me. All the procedures done. What they found was that there is a cyst in my brain that is about 1 by 2 inches wide. Its in an area of the cerebellum that is often used for balance and motor functions. However, the neurologist was 100% sure that because i did pretty well on my balance exams, then the vertigo im having has nothing to do with the brain cyst and that its harmless. Instead they were certian my condition is a psychological one, that my vertigo is in fact a delusion they think is a result from depression.
Honestly I have never been really depressed of had anxiety disorders in my life.... but after a few hospital scares, ive come to the conclusion that in fact a lot of my symptoms had been a result of having a panic attack over worrying over my health and being sick. I dont even feel like the same person anymore, its much harder to feel happy anymore. I hate this, I hate that feeling and so since then ive been actively trying to surpress all any future anxiety attacks. So far it has been working as i have been able to stop numerous ones. I hate the idea of having an anxiety disorder over this, and I am trying to fight it without having to result to the dangers and prolonged use of antidepressants.
Right now my condition has settled into 3 distinct symptoms.... constant imbalance feeling, headhaches that travel around my brain and sinuses, and strong tinnitus (a constant buzzing) in the ears. This is what I am dealing with now.
The doctors think now since I passed the vertigo tests well that this condition needs psychological treatment. I in fact do believe that i need to see a therapist, Im willing to accept that a lot of things have changed in me and I may be dealing with an snxiety disorder. However, I have had some really good days last weekent where I was feeling very happy. ANd I woul report that I still had the symptoms that day even through I totally ignored them and had a great weekend. So I willing to give a shot at trying to treat this as a mood disorder problem. But I do still feel that some of these symptoms are in fact real.
So for nw Im carrying on and just trying to take each day one at a time. Im still worried about if I will be able to handle a atandard labor job again and would i be able to handle it. And im still very much in need of commissions to help me get by. I am totally open right now BTW.
. Thank you all for sticking by with me through all this. You guys are the greatests
But for now the doctors tell me that since i am able to compensate for my balance issues pretty well, they dont think my distress from my vertigo is significant. Even so far that the neurologist hypothesised that all my symptoms are entriely psychological and that i need antidepressants.