Every day is a constant battle, dealing with what I did wrong and what I did right, what I shouldve done and what I could've done. I struggle with alot of situations that make me come off as an asshole, I struggle with alot of problems that make me over qualified for certain things that people achieve in life. I deal with depression, anxiety, and i dont have the ability to talk as great as others, but I wish I could, I also struggle heavily with jealousy and only want the best for those I care for the most, but even that's a battle when I feel like I've given my all. And wish a single person would tell me everything will be okay, I just want this all to end I'm tired of fighting for my life to get better when clearly everything is against me. I'm trying, so hard. Im in so much emotional pain right now its great.... really... I dont want to be sad anymore.. just keep pushing forward.. I'll get through this.