For me, the first half of this year has been productive, meaningful, enlightening and emotional with a few harrowing setbacks each month.

Ever since I started volunteering for the Eastleigh Twinning Association this February, I’ve been more conscious about world affairs than ever before. I took the time to review multiple branches of philosophy and psychology to decide for myself how to perceive the world around me.

And, with my local peer support group being held once a week, I’ve been able to exchange experiences and advice with my fellow attendees. This has helped me improve my conversation skills over the months little-by-little.

Unfortunately, I’m still prone to many stressful setbacks, from my impulsive tendencies to other people’s apathy, from time to time. Not too long ago, I botched a new friendship within days by trying too hard to help them out and make a good impression. This particular incident made me reconsider how I reach out to others.

Worse yet, there are many times when I feel angered by and disgusted with people in general for the damage they do to each other. These frustrations clashes with my desire to help decent people just as they helped me. Despite my pledge towards peace, mercy and justice, there’s still a part of me that cries out for revenge towards everyone who hurt me and the people I care about. However, I’m afraid of both hurting people and being hurt by them. This is what keeps me from completely giving in to anger.

So, long story short, I still have a long and bumpy road ahead of me...