I feel like over the years I have become more boring. I don't see myself as interesting as I used to be. Not as outgoing as I used to be. Could it be because of my new job? Maybe. Since I started it, my work life has become more of an office one. Sit in a chair all day, work on the computer, do boring stuff. Went from working records to doing GIS, which is more interesting. Before then, I was working in a zoological setting and was a much more interesting field, but that just didn't work out for me. I don't see as much excitement in my life anymore.

At home and with my friends, I feel like I am overshadowed, especially by my boyfriend. He's always cracking jokes or coming up with ideas and I'm sitting here with nothing really on my mind. When I speak, I feel like what I say doesn't go across that well. I feel like I am just there, enjoying the company of my friends but not contributing much. Could it be that my introverted self is coming back strong or am I just depressed? Maybe a bit of both. I have gained some weight due to work and maybe that's affecting my mood.

Thank you for listening to my random thoughts.