Well... I've figured some stuff out... and I'm gonna try and change myself for the better before the end of the month. I don't know if it will help... honestly, I doubt it will actually, but I'm hopeful none-the-less. I've screwed up a lot in the past... more so than most people maybe. I know I've done a lot of things wrong... but I'm trying to make up for it all. I know that no matter what, I'm going to love her... and that hurts more than anything. I know that deep down, she loves me back... but I've buried that feeling within her by what I've done. I've also relied on her hope to keep our relationship going... I was wrong to do that... I should have been helping more, thanking her more, and honestly, I know I have been a lot lately, but it wasn't enough. So, now, here I am at the end of my wits, knowing that either I'll learn from my past or go crazy trying... either way, I can't stand the thought of losing her again... and either way, I'm going to try and bring the hope to her this time... maybe if I do, then there's a chance... or, at the very least... maybe if I can bring her a little hope... she'll be happy.

QotD: What is love? Describe it as best you can

My answer: Love is knowing who each other are at their core. It's not about supporting each other... it's about being there for each other. It's not about who's paying for what, or who's doing what... it's about making the other person feel the love you have for them, and showing them you care. I may not always know how to show my love, but I believe in my heart that this is what love is... I just hope I can show it better when the time comes...