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A Happy Birthday a Hope and an Admission
6 years ago
Heya, everyone! It's my birthday, and I'm super happy that I have so many wonderful friends and colleagues who I've made over the past few years in the fandom to celebrate with and enjoy the day with. I've never felt so much love and support in general from...any group of people really! I adore this fandom and everyone in it, and I've had a wonderful time in it!
I've also had one of the first of one or two good birthdays I've started having in some time, which is why I think I have to get myself something I've wanted for a while, and that's to be better than I have been? Admittedly I've been swamped for a hot minute. Every few months I'd get a second wind, catch up a little, then get depressed again and fall behind, adding little things here and there to help with rent, or an emergency, but I think things have compounded somewhat?
It's gotten to the point where I can't seem to work on much of anything besides the occasional enjoyment project, and one or two commissions every two or three weeks, and that's my fault. Those are my mental hangups, and my hard time working, and that wasn't expressed to everyone who entered into commerce with me, and they shouldn't have to wait while I sort myself out.
I think, what I want for this year, the next 365 days, is as clean a slate as I can make it, whether that be through working hard and finishing as much as I can...or yes...through refunds! I'm super sorry to anyone who's been waiting for a while, but my head's been in an on and off bad place, and I don't think I've been in a spot where my customer service or general conduct has been up to the par I want it to be and that's not right.
I think my entire work ethic and day to day life isn't...working like this, and you all shouldn't wait for me to make it work. I've gotten to the point where I can support myself making things I enjoy and like, but I think that headspace is crowded in by the responsibilities I saddled myself with SO.
I've gotten a good chunk of birthday money and if you've been waiting on something and don't feel like waiting for DM me a transaction and I'll toss it back your way! I'm sorry that it's taken me so long to get around to this, it's been an up and down of a year, and of course lately that's every year.
But I feel like this year is an up year, and I want to pay that forwards by going into it as a better Caudle. If you would like to keep waiting I will knock out everything on that list, that's a promise, but I'm not gonna lie, it's not gonna be fast. I think trying to do everything at once day to day has me doing nothing, so I'm going to take a bit of time, and give every project the care it needs.
I think that's the best birthday gift I can get myself. Thank you so much for your understanding, and don't worry! I'm happy to do this, and really glad I've gotten to a spot financially where I can without worry.
DO NOT be afraid to hit me up! I'm having a wonderful birthday and I want to do as much as possible to spread that around.
I've also had one of the first of one or two good birthdays I've started having in some time, which is why I think I have to get myself something I've wanted for a while, and that's to be better than I have been? Admittedly I've been swamped for a hot minute. Every few months I'd get a second wind, catch up a little, then get depressed again and fall behind, adding little things here and there to help with rent, or an emergency, but I think things have compounded somewhat?
It's gotten to the point where I can't seem to work on much of anything besides the occasional enjoyment project, and one or two commissions every two or three weeks, and that's my fault. Those are my mental hangups, and my hard time working, and that wasn't expressed to everyone who entered into commerce with me, and they shouldn't have to wait while I sort myself out.
I think, what I want for this year, the next 365 days, is as clean a slate as I can make it, whether that be through working hard and finishing as much as I can...or yes...through refunds! I'm super sorry to anyone who's been waiting for a while, but my head's been in an on and off bad place, and I don't think I've been in a spot where my customer service or general conduct has been up to the par I want it to be and that's not right.
I think my entire work ethic and day to day life isn't...working like this, and you all shouldn't wait for me to make it work. I've gotten to the point where I can support myself making things I enjoy and like, but I think that headspace is crowded in by the responsibilities I saddled myself with SO.
I've gotten a good chunk of birthday money and if you've been waiting on something and don't feel like waiting for DM me a transaction and I'll toss it back your way! I'm sorry that it's taken me so long to get around to this, it's been an up and down of a year, and of course lately that's every year.
But I feel like this year is an up year, and I want to pay that forwards by going into it as a better Caudle. If you would like to keep waiting I will knock out everything on that list, that's a promise, but I'm not gonna lie, it's not gonna be fast. I think trying to do everything at once day to day has me doing nothing, so I'm going to take a bit of time, and give every project the care it needs.
I think that's the best birthday gift I can get myself. Thank you so much for your understanding, and don't worry! I'm happy to do this, and really glad I've gotten to a spot financially where I can without worry.
DO NOT be afraid to hit me up! I'm having a wonderful birthday and I want to do as much as possible to spread that around.
And always remember: "When life gives you lemons, don't make lemonade. Make life take the lemons back! Get mad! I don't want your damn lemons, what the hell am I supposed to do with these? Demand to see life's manager! Make life rue the day it thought it could give Caudle lemons! Do you know who I am? I'm the man who's gonna burn your house down! With the lemons!"
And get some rest, you doof!