I have thought for a couple of minutes about life and why I came here. I have always wanted to be a part of something big and do my best not to cross paths with anyone. However, I was delusioned and I became obsessed over the bad stuff which got the better of me.

If only I had waited longer and developed to come into the fandom, I would perhaps be venting these as much as I have recently. I have to admit to some degree that I have been manipulative and immature and for a while I have been a burden on everyone’s end.

Had I waited, had I waited and worked to better myself with what I needed to know and be a better, more mature being, then all of this would be moot. However, I will always have my doubts on life. I’d rather die somewhere remote and be sweeped up by some pickup truck.

Just venting. You may ignore me as you wish.