Been a minute since I’ve made a journal that wasn’t advertising for a stream, I figured I’d give an update I guess. I’ve mostly been pushing forward with life, finding enjoyment out of the little things that I come across. Lately though, it feels like I’ve hit a patch, possibly because I’ve been working for 7 days a week for the last two months with only days off being due to natural issues like weather, possibly because I’m spreading myself too thin, could be that I don’t have enough time in the day to actually get what I want done...I can’t really tell for sure.

I do thank the people that have been here for me, but it seems like I still have a lot to learn when it comes to making friends. I try to be there for people as much as I can and sometimes it isn’t enough for them to even think twice of helping me whenever I need it. An analogy I had read was that like us, the sun is used by all beings, it has the power and ability to distribute its energy onto others, and I’ve been living like that, and it gets hard. I’m going to keep doing what I do, but drop my expectations of what to expect. Maybe it’s reasonable, maybe it’s unreasonable, it’s all subjective. Give time to the ones who give you their time, not everyone deserves your time if it isn’t reciprocated. Friendship is a two way street.

I will pick up drawing again sometime in the near future, once I quit my part time job that I do on the weekends. I plan to continue to do my streams, which I’ve been putting in almost every single night, and I’ve even built up a little community and I’m so damn grateful for the people that come stop and watch. I appreciate everyone in my life right now because I wouldn’t be to the point that I am today without them, so thank you everyone, promise next time I make a journal it won’t be so gloomy. XD