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6 years ago
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So,
I've been home for two weeks now and still have nothing to post, even tho there's people waiting for a commission in my queue. On my way back home from Anthrocon I was energized, I was inspired and excited to create art again, I thought I'd be able to tackle my queue in no time, and open for more slots, and draw more and more. What really happened though is I quickly spiraled down into a really bad depressive episode. I don't know if this is post-con depression, burnout or what, but I just haven't been feeling good, about anything really, but especially my art. I found myself loathing and generally just not feeling proud of anything I've made up to this point. I looked through my gallery for inspiration, and all I found was disappointment. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but it's been hard to shake it off. Day after day I try drawing again, I even managed to put out some commission sketches, but I just don't enjoy doing it rn. I thought of cancelling all my current commissions, but I don't think I can't afford to do that, and honestly I'd rather not have to disappoint anyone, but at the same time I can't even promise a turnaround time... I feel like I need a break, but mostly I feel like I need a complete revamp, in my content, style, work habits, I even thought of changing my fursona lol. To be honest, I feel like I need to find something new, outside of drawing, but I'm at a loss for what I could even try. I still need to make money after all.
Idk. I'm sorry for making y'all wait, I hate not being able to deliver commissions at a decent time frame, but I can't force myself to do it any faster. I don't wanna give you something crappy and rushed. I still would like to finish everything in my queue even if it takes a while, but I completely understand if you don't wanna wait anymore, so if you're in my queue and would like to cancel your commission, please feel free to DM me and I'll figure out a refund.
And if you have any pointers or advice on how to deal with burnout/lack of motivation, or even ideas of different things I could try doing, please do share, I could really use some right now lol. But either way, if you read it this far, thank you. I do appreciate your attention and concern.
Take care.
I've been home for two weeks now and still have nothing to post, even tho there's people waiting for a commission in my queue. On my way back home from Anthrocon I was energized, I was inspired and excited to create art again, I thought I'd be able to tackle my queue in no time, and open for more slots, and draw more and more. What really happened though is I quickly spiraled down into a really bad depressive episode. I don't know if this is post-con depression, burnout or what, but I just haven't been feeling good, about anything really, but especially my art. I found myself loathing and generally just not feeling proud of anything I've made up to this point. I looked through my gallery for inspiration, and all I found was disappointment. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but it's been hard to shake it off. Day after day I try drawing again, I even managed to put out some commission sketches, but I just don't enjoy doing it rn. I thought of cancelling all my current commissions, but I don't think I can't afford to do that, and honestly I'd rather not have to disappoint anyone, but at the same time I can't even promise a turnaround time... I feel like I need a break, but mostly I feel like I need a complete revamp, in my content, style, work habits, I even thought of changing my fursona lol. To be honest, I feel like I need to find something new, outside of drawing, but I'm at a loss for what I could even try. I still need to make money after all.
Idk. I'm sorry for making y'all wait, I hate not being able to deliver commissions at a decent time frame, but I can't force myself to do it any faster. I don't wanna give you something crappy and rushed. I still would like to finish everything in my queue even if it takes a while, but I completely understand if you don't wanna wait anymore, so if you're in my queue and would like to cancel your commission, please feel free to DM me and I'll figure out a refund.
And if you have any pointers or advice on how to deal with burnout/lack of motivation, or even ideas of different things I could try doing, please do share, I could really use some right now lol. But either way, if you read it this far, thank you. I do appreciate your attention and concern.
Take care.
Take time to relax and focus on yourself for a little bit, Do not pressure yourself.
Yes i understand people are waiting & that can be daunting on the mind but i'm pretty sure people will understand that you need a bit of space to figure yourself out & what you want to do.
Forcing yourself to do art/commissions will only make things worse in the long run because thats where quality goes down the drain and you will find yourself more and more unhappy with your art.
Do something that you really enjoy while you're taking a breather or that you've wanted to do for a while, You have a pose/idea you've wanted to draw for a long time but have been afraid of backlash from commissioners because they're waiting? - Do it, People will understand, if they don't - I'd refund them, You need to find yourself something that excites you & motivates you & maybe some personal projects or a breather doing other things might just solve that.
Art is not something as simple as pen/paper, There is a real human behind it, putting time and effort into creating something, that can be stressful over time, i'm sure you know this very well.
If you're stuck for cash, try a vore drive or sell a multi slot YCH that you can color in locked to a species to make it easier on yourself.
Take your time pupper
You will work through it ^^
(i'm sorry if some of this comes off really bad, I'm very bad at talking about things >.>)
I do know it feels horrible showing up empty handed, it's more stressful to force yourself tho. It's ok to ask for some extra time, creativity and energy take a while to recharge sometimes, and you deserve your own share of chillin'
But yeah man, try taking it easy, it's hard when there's too much pressure on your shoulders but take care of yourself my dude.
I'm no good with advice, nor do I have good suggestions, but I'm rooting for ya over here-
Quanto a outras atividades, já pensou em talvez escrever umas histórias? Seria uma forma de empregar sua criatividade de um jeito diferente de desenhos. Talvez valesse a pena!
Conventions can be pretty exciting and fill us up with ideas, but at the same time they can be a little overwhelming. Since it was a new experience for you, it's totally understandable that you're kind of in a block right now.
As for ideas and thoughts on what to do right now, I would definitely suggesting getting in touch with some general culture. Go watch some movies, read books or go to art galleries, not to overanalyse things and learn, but just to put some fresh new ideas in your mind. :)
As for yoir commissioners, most people are very reasonable so long as you keep them updated, and I'm sure that they would be most likely happy to wait. The end result of a piece when you are feeling happy about yourself shows, forcing your self will just see you producing set that you are unhappy with.
TLDR Look after number one, and try not to let the pressures get to you <3
Much love.
Nomsune