It's been....























Something...

To be honest, many years ago, I thought I'd be dead by this hour. I even promised myself I'd make it so if my life was spiraling out of control by this point. Specifically 2200 25Jul2019, the night before my 25th birthday.
It's a very long and complicated story, but my childhood was shit from start to finish and the rest of my life hasn't been much better either. I have a different view on suicide. One most won't agree too but I don't care.

There was a caveat tho. If my life was at least stable, and I could actually have a future, then I wouldn't do it. And last minute Oregon comes in with the clutch employment and my life is now turning around. Like a thunderhawk gunship in real life but it's doing it at least. And so now here I sit fucking dumbfounded that I'm alive right now. Its weird cause I really had no plans. Within the last year I pretty much resigned myself to it. But here I am.

I level up in about 40 minutes from now. So fuckin wierd....