Stress and depression have been eating me the past few days. I feel bad enough that I've been slow with commissions, now I can hardly push myself to keep working, due to the aforementioned stress and depression, anxiety, self-doubt... It's very frustrating, and I'm sorry to everyone who's been waiting longer than they'd have to for their art. I'm not trying to slack off. I'm trying to make sure I'm in a good enough mental state to push myself to commit to my work. But right now the pushing hurts too much. I don't like feeling pressured to finish stuff.

So after talking with some amazing friends, I've decided that I'll have to take a 5-day break from all commission work, or anything I owe to other people. It's the source of my current stress phase. I need to let myself recover and relax until the stress subdues for at least 5 days. I'll be drawing the next stage of the growth drive tomorrow, but my break would officially start the day after. And by Friday or Saturday, I'll possibly be ready for commissions again. I can't promise this though, depression bouts are hard to predict, especially time-wise.

But hopefully soon I will be stable enough to keep working. Because given how much I've struggled with my previous job, commissions are pretty much all I have, in regards to finances. I've been trying to save money to move out from family and live a comfortable, independent life, but so far I've gotten nowhere. In fact it's getting worse now.

So yeah...