Welp, I am single again.

There's a good chance my ex might buy the house with his new gf and that would mean I have to get the fuck out, and go somewhere else.

My ex gf and I are still really close friends so we might go out and try to get an apartment (we decided to be sisters instead of partners). My other roommate might join us. I don't know what the future will hold, but it's pretty scary and I don't know what's going to happen.

I was going to get more bugs for my birthday, but everything extra is now old complete hold. My future is very uncertain.

I'm going to fight for ssi/disability again because if i can get, i could afford a little one bedroom apartment in the area. And yes, I do count as disabled. The problem is that in America its customary to deny applicants up to three times. I already got denied once.

So yeah. I'm sad. I'm depressed. I don't know what's going to happen to me.

I'm just more sad that i'm too broken of a person to be loved by someone. I can't give most people what they want and that just depresses me even more.

Bleh :(