I don't know for sure if I have an anxiety disorder, but I think I have it pretty bad. My last (and first) job was dish washing. It sucked, but it was away from customers and didn't require much socializing. Now I'm trying to look for another job that doesn't deal with customers, but I live in the middle of nowhere with few options. Any job I look into seems to only hold positions that are meant for leaders and people who can handle tons of work. I'm a fuckin' klutz, so I just don't trust myself to be relied on so heavily. I should just suck it up and just take whatever job I can find, but I can't seem to shake off the nervousness. When I was a dish washer, I never stopped thinking of what my coworkers thought of me. I was always worried I was slower than everyone else, especially since I tend to be a perfectionist. With that in mind, dish washing is a no-go. I also don't want to work in fast-food and I don't like the idea of retail, so I'm stumped. I wish something in art was an option, but even then I'm still learning, which is another thing I need to work on. On top of everything, I still need to find a way out of this bad living situation, and somehow get into college. I'm so overwhelmed.