I wish that this is a good news from my last Journal entry but sadly it got worse..............

Last night I had a rude awakening when I found out why one of the three girls was avoiding me all this time. It was because during this entire time, she already had a boyfriend and she is moving in with him. What hurts the most is not because of that, but for the fact that she didn't tell me and avoiding me was her answer.............

Won't even lie and say that I cried and I died once again, which makes it 1,920 times I think, and feel like the biggest idiot. I know that I should have made a choice in the past, but I just didn't believe that it would be the best idea to pick just base on a online meeting. I mean if I did picked one of them and then met in person and we didn't click, then what about the others. I really did tried my best and be fair but I guess in the end I was only believing in a foolish dream...........

Guess in the end, Elektra http://www.furaffinity.net/user/elektrastone/ is the last one, if she is still out there or even wants me after all of this............

(sighs) Sorry if this is another downer but guess I am trying to follow Maverikat example and try to be more open. Beside the fact that I have been destroyed countless times and even more pain when I have recorded from the last time, in the end I have no choice but to continue to more on since I don't have a choice but to do so.