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rip me
6 years ago
i've lost my will to keep trying or bothering.
i won't bother anyone anymore with my sadness and my depression.
i won't say or do anything so no one will ever be offended by me again.
i won't keep trying to keep any sort of presence anywhere where i'm not wanted.
i've been trying for a long time to do something, anything with my life, only to find out that my life itself is worthless.
i'm sorry for posting this.
i'm sure someone will get offended, but i know a lot of people will get a good laugh out of it. my pain has been the entertainment for several people for many years so here's to you.
at least i'm good for that.
i'm not going to kill myself or anything, sorry if you worried about that. just disconnecting entirely and ... i don't know yet. right now, i can't think straight, i'm stuck in a very dark place, and have been for several years.
talking doesn't help. nothing gets fixed by talking.
2000 job applications. 2000.
my family is more abusive than ever.
i'm completely alone and in a very dangerous place with nothing to catch me from falling.
so there it is.
i won't bother anyone anymore with my sadness and my depression.
i won't say or do anything so no one will ever be offended by me again.
i won't keep trying to keep any sort of presence anywhere where i'm not wanted.
i've been trying for a long time to do something, anything with my life, only to find out that my life itself is worthless.
i'm sorry for posting this.
i'm sure someone will get offended, but i know a lot of people will get a good laugh out of it. my pain has been the entertainment for several people for many years so here's to you.
at least i'm good for that.
i'm not going to kill myself or anything, sorry if you worried about that. just disconnecting entirely and ... i don't know yet. right now, i can't think straight, i'm stuck in a very dark place, and have been for several years.
talking doesn't help. nothing gets fixed by talking.
2000 job applications. 2000.
my family is more abusive than ever.
i'm completely alone and in a very dangerous place with nothing to catch me from falling.
so there it is.
Please don't.
I can't help, as much as I want to, but just know that you're loved and that things will get better.
i can't navigate how to get anything more than applying for prescriptions.
they got back to me, and the account, while addressed to my name in email, is now under my mother's fucking name so i have to get it changed and they're not open today. jesus fuck i can't even apply online to shit right.
can't get a job. can't do anything. basically a living leech no matter what i do.