Hey. just...ugh. I really hate writing these depression journals, but...ugh. I have to leave my aunt and uncle's house because I pissed off my aunt(I tried to remind her mom had texted her, and she already knew..and I got my head bitten off because i got in the way of the two and i should've 'backed the fuck off'), and my uncle is gonna call me to talk most likely about it...ugh...so that's 4 things I've learned since living with my aunt and uncle. Good intentions are bad and get you in trouble, trying is another word for giving up, Sorry doesn't mend anything, and never loan money to family...even if its an emergency...and i learned one thing...there's no such thing as happiness or love...it's all a lie. I try and be happy and put up a brave face...but...I feel deep down i don't deserve any of it...no one will hire me because I'm Autistic...I constantly walk on eggshells around my aunt and uncle where if I say the wrong thing...kicked out or forcing me to destroy one of my consoles or laptop...or worse, taking away my bank account because I got under 1000$. I don't know what's ever right or wrong anymore....there is no happiness or love...I don't deserve any of that...