Update (Dad's death, funeral, etc)
6 years ago
Hi everyone
I kinda wanted to make a little journal entry just explaining a bit more about what happened concerning my dad's death and the aftermath so far, as well as what my future holds.
I feel I'm pretty open to talk about this, now that most of the hard stuff has been done.
Warning, some of what I'll say will be quite detailed and sensitive for some. But it's the only way I can explain it, I'm quite blunt
So two Tuesdays ago, I had literally just woken up when my best mate burst through my bedroom door, saying that he's found dad on his bedroom floor unresponsive. We turned him over onto his back, and soon as I touched him I knew he was already gone. I wasn't being pessimistic either, it's just one of those things you know as soon as you see it. He was ice cold, and his skin was not normal coloured, he was stiff and kinda bloated.
We called the paramedics and we tried CPR until they got there. They were really good too, took them about 5 minutes to get to the house.
And they told what I already knew, that he had passed away. I called some family and family friends up, they came over as soon as they heard.
Soon the cops and the coroners came over too. From what they and the paramedics could assume visually and physically on the spot, they were almost 100% certain that he died of a heart attack. I won't know properly though until the medical report comes in, which should be in a couple of weeks.
Since then, I've had my good days and bad days. There's been days where I'll feel quite lonely, but when I hang with people I straight away want to be by myself. So yeah, my emotions have been fairly up and down.
We had his funeral three days ago. I was actually quite relieved with how it went.
My dad's side of the family has some history that I won't go into details. I was worried some not so good things would come up at the funeral with them. But they were actually fine, and quite respectful.
The burial spot we chose was really beautiful. Looks over the hills, and it's next to a park bench. The wake was nice, got to speak with family, eat some food and such.
Speaking of which, I do still have a Go Fund Me campaign for Dad's funeral costs. Hoping to reach the goal $7k so I can fully cover the costs in time. If anyone would like to donate (or even spread the word out), here's the link
https://www.gofundme.com/f/farewell....._co_campmgmt_w
You don't have to worry about putting in a heap load of money either. Even if it's five dollars, every bit helps. And thanks in advance who anyone who does chip in.
So what happens to me from here?
For now, I'll be still living at the same house, as long as I know that I'm able to afford it. I do like the house I'm in, as well as the area. If I can't afford to stay there, I'll move into a relative's place for however long I'll need to.
I'm back at uni for another week, and then it'll be mid-semester break. Couldn't have come at a better time honestly.
I'll be slowly getting back to doing art. I've almost finished the YCH piece I was supposed to finish off ages ago. When the break comes, I'll have the time to finish that and whatever other commissions I need to finish off.
For those who have been supportive within the last 12 days, I really am appreciative for it. It's helped keep me strong and up on my feet.
Life as I know will be quite different from here on in, but I know I will get through this.
Thanks
~Guru
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KlausD
Anthropornorphic
All the best and hope all stays ok from here for you.