Lately I feel to tired about drawing, it keeps being problematic for me. Sometimes I even have a feeling I wanna delete everything and start once again. SO, I just moved all my "not personal" art to the scraps, as well as references and other boring shit to the scraps...well, I definetly don't do enough personal art. It was a good kick honestly to start thinking about how actually I miss personal full and bright drawings, my own OCs brought to life and such. Lately I have mostly just vent art or sketches with them. Not sure if it's good or bad. many artists have the same situation, but they usually have like 2-3 or even only 1 character they draw to relax.

I have a full collection of OCs, species, and some small stories between them I wanna set into a full world. Well, at least it was my childhood dream and it's something I really love to do - showing feelings with characters I have in mind and bringing them to viewer with my art. After I cleaned gallery from similar heashots, halfbodies and full drawings I see..I don't do it. I am just tired of it? I don't even know now if I wanna draw basically or it's my boring work. The bad thing - I have no idea about any other hobby/thing that makes me happy in mind. I always had only drawings. I hate parties, I hate chats, I hate command games. And I hate when I spend time for nothing, so gaming is not my thing too.

It's going to be busy year for me - my university will make me draw most of time things I don't feel I wanna draw. So expect non activity. Right now, before I get really busy, I think I should try to give a birth for few full drawings with my OCs and see, how it will affect me. Will I start feel better or not? Thats the question I wanna now. For now I feel completely stuck with own progress, ideas and inspiration. Music, serials, everything, basically - boring.

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I am not sure how many people will actually read it lol? maybe somebody had similar problems?