I also have learned that I have some subconscious thoughts that are reminding me on my unfulfilled wishes and desires. It's Stuff related to the fandom like having a different secondary fursona, not much else. I feel like i just haven’t fully embraced the fandom and I need to explore a little bit more. On top of that, somewhere inside of me, i am reluctant of letting you all know what I wish to say about that more in depth in the fear of being of ostracized for my obscure choices. Yet the fandom is quite accepting. I may be thinking of saving up for a fursuit. During my current course of being here in the fandom, this has and is quite an intriguing exploration of alternate realities.